Some Photos!

We took over 200 photos... but here are a few nice ones:


Edinburgh Castle:

St. Andrew's Chapel, Holyrood Park, Edinburgh:

Whiskey tasting in Edinburgh:

Having a tune in Stirling:

Stonehenge:

Me in front of Buckingham Palace:

Parliament, Westminster Abbey, and Big Ben from the Londond Eye:

Ahh...

.... it was SO NICE to shower in my own bathroom, sleep in my own bed (it was crowded! I had two furry creatures with me all night), wake up in my own home and make breakfast in my own kitchen. I am so happy to be home!

The laundry is done and I'm going to head over to Eastern Market later this morning for some fresh produce in a bit.

Now it's time to get to work on my home. First order of business - hanging artwork! I plan to print and frame some of the better photos I've taken from my travels for the entryway, I think that will be nice. So I need to get thinking about which photos would be best, as well as hang some existing artwork that I didn't get around to placing before I left.

I need to take some stuff to Goodwill and start thinking about buying a little breakfast table. Those things will happen over the next few weeks. A home is a work in progress, right?

Home

We ended the trip with a bang of sorts.. decided to go for a hike in Holyrood Park, which is more of a set of mountains than a park. And I mean serious mountains - rocky crags and grassy valleys. The hike was extremely strenuous but rewarding - we stumbled upon beautiful views of Edinburgh and St. Andrew's Chapel in ruin.

Afterwards, we walked down to Grassmarket for our final meal. Ironically, we ended up eating at a pub called The Last Drop - a play on the Scots' two favorite passtimes: drinking whiskey and hanging people. The Drop is directly across from the site of the old gallows. Lovely.

After a walk down the hill for a fried Mars bar we decided to call it a night. A long but uneventful trip home today, and I have two happy and healthy kitties climbing all over me.

Photos to come...

Scottish Music in Edinburgh

Not so good.

We had another Beheading Stone moment trying to find the Antiquary pub where I heard from my new friends in Stirling a session was on Thursday night. Trying to follow a map of roads that originated as cow paths in the dark and with inconsistent sinage was something else! We had a blast traipsing to the other side of town but had a hell of a time trying to find the pub.

An attempt at going around the block (like I said, cow paths) put us about a half-mile out of our way, which we realized a little later when we came again into the shadow of a huge clock-tower that had been marking our way thus far.

We finally found the pub and realized to our chagrin that we had walked down that exact street about 20 minutes ago and just didn't see it.

The Antiquary is a real gem of a pub, dark and warm and cozy, but the music was terrible. More of a "jam session" and heavily song-focused (though they started with I'll Fly Away, randomly) there was absolutely no energy or vibe.

So after two beers and a wee dram we had the munchies and headed back to our hotel with the intent of finding a curry house along the way. And, though we had passed several on our trek to the pub, we couldn't find any on the way back. Desperate, the Golden Arches summoned. Against our will we surrendered to the pull until Saigon Saigon came into view and we ducked in for pork curry, sweet and sour chicken, and a spring roll.

A late start to our final day. I slept in for the first time in two weeks and we're just catching up on the news before checking in for our flight and embarking on our last day in the United Kingdom.

In Edinburgh

We are in Edinburgh for the last leg of the trip. The drive from Stirling and return of the rental car was uneventful, and we have a great location here, half block off the Royal Mile, halfway between the Castle and the Palace.

Oh - we found the beheading stone!! We made a point to find in on google earth and then stop there this morning on our way out of town. Like everything else in Stirling, finding the stone involved a long, steep, strenuous hike generally straight UP to the top of a huge hill. But it was worth it!

We started with a stroll up the Royal Mile toward the castle, stopping in some shops along the way. Edinburgh Castle is HUGE... we spent more than an hour wandering the various towers and buildings. On the way back, we decided to try a scotch whisky tasting. We splurged on the "gold" version which gave us not only the complimentary tasting that everyone gets but a tasting of four additional whiskys (from each region in Scotland that produces whisky - the Lowlands, Highlands, Speyside, and Islay) at the end. It was great! The tour started with an in-depth look at how scotch whisky is made, followed by a tasting in the vault, where the largest collection of scotch whisky in the world is held - over 3,000 bottles - and then our final tasting in the bar. The Lowlands and Highlands were my favorites. I didn't care at all for the Speyside and Islay malts.

I am in desperate need of a burger and deep-fried Mars bar so... off we go to spend the rest of the day in town. Tomorrow we'll try to go on a self-guided walking tour, visit the writer's museum, pub-crawl, wander, and get ready for the journey home.

Scottish Music in Stirling

So at lunch at the No. 2 Baker St pub in Stirling we found out they were having traditional Scottish music that night. We went back to catch a tune, and along with some bluegrass banjos one guy was playing a tenor banjo. At the break, I went up to see who made it, and he let me try it. A minute or two into the first set of the second half, they invited me up for a tune! It was way cool. So I played a plugged-in banjo in Stirling, Scotland.

Day Four on the Road - Scotland

Scotland is windy and rain falls from blue skies. The mountains are bare and gorgeous and there are sheep everywhere. From the coastline of Wales we drove through the Cambrian Mountains and then through the Southern Uplands as a nice contrast to the ocean.

Once north of Manchester and Liverpool, it was smooth sailing to Hadrian's Wall, a huge, 83-foot stone wall built by Emperor Hadrian to mark the boundary between England and Scotland. We stopped at Birdoswald Fort and wandered around the ruins, including a cemetary currently being excavated by archaelogists, the idea being that the excavation beats the cemetary falling into the valley below, as it slides further and further down each year.

From there we crossed the border into Scotland and went straight for Stirling Castle, a huge fortress way on top of a mountain in Stirling. When we arrived there were loads of tour buses in the parking lot - daytrips from Edinburgh and Glasgow - but hoards of people were exiting the grounds as we were entering and we had the place relatively to ourselves to wander around the amazing grounds.

After taking in our fill of kitchens, great halls, gardens, chapels, courtyars, and the most incredible views over the Scottish lowlands below, we went in search of a B&B. We have had the best luck - thanks in part to my trusty Lonely Planet guide (I NEVER travel without one) and found a darling little place in the city centre.

When the innkeeper was explaining how to get to the coffee shop where I'm sitting (for free Wifi), she kept describing the "wee chairs" out front. I love it!

Starving, we stopped for a beer and a bite then went off to hike around the city walls - again - through the cemetaries, around the castle, and in search of the Beheading Stone - the place where the beheadings happened, naturally, and is now barred off to prevent anyone from re-enacting the scene...

... well, a long and valiant effort ensued, and we just couldn't find the spot! The maps weren't clear, we couldn't find any landmarks, and a later check of Google Earth confirmed that we were nowhere near the correct spot. Oh well. We'll try to swing by in the morning on our way out of town to Edinburgh, where we'll return the car and spend our remaining day and a half exploring the vibrant capitol of Scotland.

Third Day on the Road - Back in England

After a long tour in Wales we are back in England - barely, settling in the town of Chester for the night, just over the border. I had wanted to make it north of Liverpool and Manchester but we are just south of those cities and that's fine - Chester is an old Roman fort city with walls circling the town centre. You can walk along the top of the walls the entire way, about two miles, past a castle, a cathedral, the channel, the river, different neighborhoods. It's really quite cool! There's also a Roman amphitheater in ruin and a great pedestrian shopping area. Not a bad place to hole up for the night.

After leaving Cardigan we drove through a foggy, misty Welsh morning along the rocking, foamy coast. Beautiful coastline indeed! After some deliberation and a few changes of minds, we pointed the GPS toward Harlech Castle on the northwest coast, a large seaside fortress. We spent a while wandering around the grounds in the whipping wind, got a sandwich and a steaky and kidney pie for lunch, respectively, and hit the road for Chester.

After walking the walls we had a pint in an old pub which used to be the tollgate into the city, then went in search of a room. We've had great luck with kind innkeepers and clean, ensuite rooms for good prices.

Tomorrow we will drive to Hadrian's Wall on the England/Scotland border and find a little Scottish town to stay in night. Thursday morning we arrive in Edinburgh, where we'll stay until we fly out on Saturday morning.

Second Day on the Road - from Wells to Wales

This morning we left our B&B and drove through Bristol and over the Severn River into Wales. We immediately headed for a large and imposing castle at Carreg Cerren - a huge fortress set high up on a hill. And high it was - the climb was grueling but rewarding! We wandered around the towers and rooms and down into a cave before getting back in our car and pointing south to Pembroke.

We wanted to see Pembroke Castle and possibly wander around in Pembrokeshire National Park, but time got away from us and after touring the second castle (more of a residence than a fortress but boasting a lovely climb up 100 spiral steps to the top of the highest keep, panoramic views of the Welsh countryside!) we decided to head to a closeby town and hole up for the night.

We had encountered a Welsh traffic jam earlier in the day, which didn't feel much different than an American traffic jam, and I think that added to our sense that we'd had enough driving time today!

We're in Cardigan right now, on the western Welsh coast, and tomorrow will head north through Wales and back into England briefly, then north to Scotland. Towns and activities TBD.

First Day On the Road

A full and exciting first day out of London! We picked up our car from Gatwick airport and pointed the GPS toward Stonehenge. What a magnificent site! I honestly didn't think Stonehenge would be that interesting, seeing as how it's right next to the freeway and loaded with tourists - but it was very interesting and beautiful and I'm glad we stopped there.

We both really wanted to see the Roman ruins at Bath but my guidebook said that traffic in Bath was awful and it had an "infuriating" one-way road system. The guidebook suggested a nearby Park & Ride service but we weren't sure we'd be able to find it. A little searching with the GPS, however, and we found a listing for "Bath Park & Ride" at Odd Down, just south of the city. The parking lot was half-empty, the bus just about to leave (four pounds for two return trips!)... so we hopped on the 10-minute ride to Bath.

Amazing! We ate lunch in the courtyard of the Bath Abbey, a very imposing church, before entering the baths themselves. I didn't know how extensive they were! They was the Great Bath, fed by the hot spring directly, East and West baths, a sauna, a cold "plunge pool," changing rooms, and lots and lots of pathways and walkways between. It truly was amazing to see ruins thousands of years old and walk the same paths the ancient Romans walked.

It was late-ish by the time we got back to the Park & Ride, and, not wanting to drive in the dark, we consulted the trusty guidebook and found an interesting town about 10 miles away -Wells, the smallest city in England, featuring an imposing medieval cathedral. One B&B in particular got a good review so we pointed the GPS to the Infield House and set off. The proprietor met us as we were walking in and had a room, which was great.

After checking in we walked into downtown Wells, around not only the cathedral but also the Bishop's Palace and another huge Anglican church (St. Cuthbert's) before deciding we needed a beer. The first place we stumbled upon happened to be a pub, the building built in the year 1549 and used as the jail - complete with bars on the windows as a solitary cell! We ate outside, though, in terrace, not needing the feeling of being in jail while relaxing in southern England.

The definite highlight of the meal was a chicken breast stuffed with ground sausage and herbs, all wrapped in bacon... mmmm...

On that note, I am offiically getting FAT. But loving every minute of it!

Tomorrow we hope to make it through Wales to Snowdonia and spend part of the day Tuesday hiking in the National Park. Mount Snowden is supposed to be lovely. After that we'll head north into Scotland, settling in Edinburgh for the last leg of our trip by Thursday afternoon.

A good last day in London

We had a nice last day in London! Very leisurely. We started out with a run down to Brompton Cemetary and had breakfast at a little cafe on the way home. We wanted to see two museums and hit up a specific Indian place for dinner. Between those activities and visiting with my cousin Neil and his wife Mandy, we didn't have much on the agenda.

The Natural History Museum was gorgeous and interesting. And free! After that, we took the Tube down to King's Cross to visit the British Library which has an amazing collection of manuscripts including ancient copies of illuminated texts of every major religion (Hinduism, Judaism, Christianity, Jainism, Islam, Buddhism, Tao, and probably other's I'm forgetting), original letters from Charles Darwin, Sigmund Freud, and others, original notes and lyrics from the Beatles, original sheet music from major composers, Beethoven's original tuning fork, and even a copy of the Magna Carta.

After that we browsed King's Cross including a couple of bookshops, had lunch at a pub, and headed back to Kensington to meet Neil and Mandy. What nice people! We had a coffee and shared stories of travel and just got to know each other. They gave us lots of advice for our impending road trip.

After resting in the room for a bit we decided to take one last walk around Hyde Park before heading to the Indian place for dinner, which was amazing, despite my spilling a glass of wine. Sigh.

Tomorrow morning we head back to Gatwick airport where we have an (automatic) car rented. Atlas in hand, GPS turned on, we'll head first to Stonehenge and then to Cornwall. No specific itinerary except to be in Edinburgh on Thursday afternoon.

I hope to have some time to blog about every other day, but I'm not sure what our internet access will be like... stay tuned! The adventure is just beginning!

So much curry...

... oh my god. So much curry. The Indian food here is to die for. We've had it two nights in a row for dinner - last night after a long stroll through St. James' Park, around St. James' Palace and down to Downing St. We hung out along the river until we were starving, at which point we came back to our neighborhood (Earl's Court) and had the most amazing Indian meal right down the street from our hotel. Heads above the curry we had the night before. We have one more Indian place to try tonight (The Owner Eats Here, brags the sign) just for comparative purposes.

We figure, we'll have plenty of time to sample traditional English, Welsh, and Scottish fare while out in the country... might as well take the opportunity to get what is considered to be some of the best Indian food in the world while in London.


We are about to walk down to the Natural History Museum and then catch the Tube up to King's Cross and the British Library, where the Magna Carta is on display. Then we'll catch up with my cousin Neil for a cup of coffee before figuring out what to do with our last night here in London...

It's all who you know!

We were a little early to meet our friend at Scotland Yard yesterday so we took some time to wander around Westminster. We saw Westminster Abbey - unfortunately, photography was prohibited inside! But lots of royalty are buried there, including Mary Queen of Scots, Queen Elizabeth (arch-rivals), and Muzio Clementi, the father of the piano. From there we wandered around to Buckingham Palace and through St. James' Park back to Scotland Yard.

After lunch, which brought some surprising news (in a minute!), we walked down past Big Ben, over Westminster Bridge, and hopped on the London Eye, a huge ferris wheel where you ride in glassed-in capsules providing an amazing panoramic view of the city. Two young pages sweep each capsule for bombs between boarding! Eep!

We had a bit of time before our unbelievable evening plans (patience!) so we walked back to our hotel to change, and, still having time, walked down to Brompton Cemetary which has to be one of the creepiest I've ever seen. Crows caw, the lawn isn't mowed, graves are basically on top of each other, haphazardly arranged.

After a good stroll, we decided to hit the tube down to Tower Hill, where - here it is, drum roll please!! - we would meet up with a friend of our Scotland Yard contact for an event that is NOT open to the public and very few people get to see - the Turning of the Keys at the Tower of London.

The Turning of the Keys is the ceremony that essentially locks the Tower, and, since the Crown Jewels have been housed there for hundreds of years (the Queen has been housed there herself as well during certain reigns) this is a ceremony that is taken very, very seriously, and has changed little if not at all in the past 700 years.

We began at the Tower Entrance where we were given an overview of Tower Hill and it's history. We then moved through the first gate and were oriented with the different towers (there are 20 in all!) and their functions. Some were prisons, some were torture chambers, some were (and are) residences, one holds the Crown Jewels. The guards of the jewels and the tower live inside the walls - kids, pets, everyone, locked in at 10pm nightly and taking various guard posts throughout the day and night.

We stopped into the chapel where not only royalty but the bodies of those beheaded (which, in some cases, were royalty!) are buried and is still a functioning chapel today. Then we moved onto the little pub (which was closed to the public when we went back the next day to actually tour the towers and the jewels) where we had a drink and socialized with the other lucky people for a while until it was time for the ceremony to begin.

The guardsman with the keys walks around and locks each gate, accompanied by an armed Royal escort. Then, at one point, a guard of the tower challenges them, asking who goes there and who's are the keys. The man locking the towers replies that they're the queen's keys and is allowed to pass. The last gate is locked, the jewels are safe, and all is well.

Today we woke up late and booked our car for the road trip which begins Sunday. After that, we headed back down to Tower Hill to take a look around in the daytime. Being there in the bright sunlight with hundreds of other tourists was a MUCH different atmosphere than walking around in the pitch black with 20 other people. And at one point we overheard a tour guide saying, "At night the gates are locked up in a royal ceremony which the public is not allowed to watch." The GENERAL public, maybe ;-)

After the Tower we walked along the Thames and over London Bridge to Burough Market, which is an indescribable menage of booth selling all manner of prepared foods. Of the more exotic we saw Basque charcuterie, ostrich and kangaroo meat, types of cheeses I've never heard of and can't remember, ostrich and duck eggs, skate, scallops in the shell, all manner of sausage and fowl. We got toasted cheese sandwiches and sat on the lawn of the Southwalk Cathedral to eat. And eat we did. After spending a little more than an hour walking around with our mouths hanging open (and sometimes being stuffed with samples), I headed home to nap and my travel companion over to Whitechapel to hunt down some of the sites of the Jack the Ripper murders.

Tomorrow, our last day in London, will be spent at the Natural History Museum, getting together with a cousin of mine on the Irish side who drives a cab here in London, a trip down to the British Library to see the Magna Carta and other delights, and maybe a concert at St. Martin's in the Field.

Then we depart for the countryside!

Running in London

Running in London takes a lot of mental effort. The traffic patterns are odd, you have to look the opposite way first before crossing the street, which takes a lot of getting used to. The last thing I'm trying to do is get hit by a car in another country!

Running in London, however, is very rewarding! It was about ten minutes from the hotel to Hyde Park. From there, the route took us past the Prince Albert Memorial, past Kensington Castle, around a gorgeous little pond, and through some gardens. We stopped at an Italian cafe on the way back for pain au chocolat and espressos. At the table next to us were two little English schoolgirls and their mother, having hot chocolate and canolis before school. We are definitely NOT situated in a working-class neighborhood!

We spent yesterday getting acclimated. Took a long walk through Kensington, stopped in Herrod's (a foodie's paradise!!), strolled through Hyde Park, got fish and chips and ale at a pub, and generally walked our poor feet off.

After a snooze we went to Earl's Court for a nightcap - more beer and two amazing snacks: stilton and mustard melted over crostini and a couple of wedges of a lovely Scottish sheep's milk cheese with pickled pearl onions.

One thing I am totally digging is the tea! I stopped at the grocery store and picked up a box of Yorkshire tea, which I knew I loved because my mom had brought some back for me before, and the hotel room has REAL MILK in little tubed, sealed specially to last at room temperature. No Lipton's and cream for me! No sir!

Today we are going to meet one of our friends from Scotland Yard for lunch and head down to the Tower of London/London Bridge/etc area for a while.

I'll try to post something every day but don't yell at me if I'm not perfectly consistent! There's a lot to see and do here besides blog ;-) and once we get on the road we may not have internet access every day. But, do not worry, I will do what I can to keep my dear readers informed!

Chillin' in the UK

Arrived safely after a long but uneventful trip. Slept like a rock over night. Still tired, but gonna head out for a run down to Hyde Park and back... more later...stay tuned!

Heading Across the Pond

I will have a laptop with me in the United Kingdom... so expect blog posts, sporadic as they may be... see everyone from the other side of the Atlantic!

My sweet girls

I woke up from a snooze this afternoon to find that I was not alone. Swoon!

I don't think I can go to the library anymore!

Ugh, I totally screwed up at the library and I don't recover well from faus pax like that. I am so embarassed. I don't know if I can go back. Ack!

I wanted to go today and check out a few books for my trip, but I hadn't been to the Capitol Hill branch of the library yet. I assumed it would run similarly to the Cleveland Park branch that I had been using. Mistake, apparently.

So, I walk in and over to the computers. A few are free. I sit down at one and start to sign in using my library card ID, as the screen says. It doesn't work. I try three times and I can't get it to work. I try to ask the woman sitting next to me but she absolutely does not acknowledge that I've spoken to her. She sort of glanced at me and then straight back at her screen and wouldn't look at me or answer my question!

Just as I'm starting to think that's odd, the librarian comes over and asks me if the computer has been reserved for me. Um, what? Of course it hasn't been reserved for me. I have no idea what she's talking about. She reaches over my shoulder and clicks "CANCEL" and the screen says, "RESERVED FOR AJANNETTE." Um, what? She says, "You have to reserve these computers ahead of time." Meanwhile, Ajannette is standing behind her giving me the sinkeye and I feel totally embarassed.

So I follow the librarian over to the reference desk and I apologized and said that I never had to reserve a computer at the Cleveland Park Branch, I'm new to the neighborhood, I don't know how it works, sorry, sorry, etc and she says, "No. You have to reserve the computers at all branches." Um, what? I have NEVER had to reserve a computer in Cleveland Park! I swear! And no one ever yanked me out of the chair and admonished me! But I kept my mouth shut because by now everyone was staring at the clueless chick who barged in on the reservation line like an idiot.

She asks for my library card and driver's license and asks me if I'm over 18. Um, yes. I'm almost 30 and I have gray hair :) But, I said, I don't need to reserve a computer now because I have lunch plans and just wanted to look up a book quickly but I don't have time anymore.

"It's not lunchtime."

Well for some of us 11:30am IS lunchtime, but okay... I still needed to go... so I told her I didn't need a computer, got my ID card and license and left the library with no books.

I am SO embarrassed! I wish there had been signs on the computers reminding people to reserve them. How are we supposed to know?? Ack, I hate it when I don't understand the rules someplace and make an idiot out of myself. I'll have to wait a few weeks before I go back, and even then, I know I'll be walking on eggshells. :(

I love fall

Autumn is my favorite season. The crisp, clean breeze. The crunchy leaves. Pumpkin muffins and peppermint hot chocolate (though not at the same time!). I love turning the AC off and sleeping with the windows wide open, covered with lots of blankets (and cats). I love running and wearing makeup that doesn't sweat off. I love soft, ballet-inspired sweaters and early-morning wisps of spooky fog.

I love it all.

Cats have so much to teach us

... about self-care!

My cat Natasha always manages to find the coziest spots to rest in. Not like Elena, who is known to curl up in the middle of the floor and snooze. Um, what? Convenient, yes, but not cozy. Not like my Natasha.

Here she is between her scratching post and the little step into the bathroom.

And here she is in ooth of their favorite new spots, lounging in the very wide windowsills..

And just to be fair, here's Elena hanging out in the windowsill, too.

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Life Update

I started running again! I'm such a Type A.. I thought to myself that I would start running again this weekend, it being a long holiday weekend. Fine. But today was so gorgeous that after work I wanted to run. But I told myself, "No, you said you would start this weekend and that's when you start!" What the hell is wrong with me? I am such a rule-follower... especially when the rules are self-imposed! So anyway, I went for a run and no kidding - it was hard! But very satisfying. I'm looking forward to a long fall/winter/spring of running.

I feel very settled in my new home. I've been cooking and the kitchen is feeling more and more natural. I had a package delivered today and my mail has started coming. I know my commute and it's still a pretty easy one (30 minutes to work by bus, 30 home by metro). I'm finding my way around the neighborhood, to the little corner stores and whatnot.

I'm not sure what to read right now, though. I've been shopping my bookshelf and I have a few unread books but right now I want something comfortable. I'm thinking of re-reading the Claudius novels by Robert Graves. I absolutely LOVE them. Maybe I'll start those as well as a new one, so I have something on standby for when I want to read but don't feel like paying attention to a new plotline.

The long weekend is coming, followed by a short week. On the 11th I'll take a train to Connecticut for the weekend to attend my cousin's wedding. I get back on Sunday the 13th and on Tuesday the 15th leave for the United Kingdom for two weeks.

Why should my life slow down?

This is the weekend!

Yes folks, this is it. This is the weekend when I will resume running. As my faithful readers know, I have taken the hottest summer months off from running to focus on weights. And it's been great! But the weather is getting cool now and I'm itching to get out there. This coming weekend is a long one and now that I'm two blocks off the National Mall I really have no excuse to keep the shoes hung up.

Reports forthcoming...

Evening in my new pad

Just a Sunday night, drinking wine and working on the Washington Post magazine crossword, with the Capitol dome in the background. Sigh......

I'm Home

Well I'm here an unpacking. I'd say I'm about 80% done. It was not as rough a day as I expected, but I can't help feeling a little melancholy. Homesick? I know that sounds weird, but I feel like I've left my home to move to a new place. This place doesn't feel like home yet, but I will. I know it will.

I'd say the weirdest thing about all this, and maybe part of my anxiety, is that I'm really here now. I never had any plans to leave DC but now I'm REALLY not leaving. Not for ten years at least. That, my friends, is a very odd feeling - I'm really not far off that hectic part of life where everything moves in four-year bursts. That's over now, and I'm in the settling in part of life where roots and routine really matter.

I feel like I've entered a new stage of life, and not just the "oh you're a homeowner, you're all grown up!" part, but even without the home... the life I have now is probably similar to the life I'll have ten, fifteen years from now. Good thing I love my life :) But it wasn't so long ago that something brand-new was right around the corner - new school, new city. No longer.

This is it... and I think I'm doing good :)

I'm a homeowner!

And it really wasn't that stressful! After doing the final walk-through this morning and getting the keys, I splurged on a hot chocolate and we went to the settlement office. I signed my name about fifty times and paid an obscene amount of money... and we were done!

A couple of nice things: everyone involved was great. The seller was very nice (it was an investment property so he is used to this process). The realtors were very nice, the settlement attorney was great. Everyone was in good moods and the vibe was lighthearted.

I had been over the three main documents with my brother, a mortgage lender in Miami, the night before, so I really felt as though I understood everything that was happening, and I had the chance to get my questions cleared up before signing my life away. That surely helped the process go quickly and smoothly.

There were no "surprises" no additional fees, etc. In fact, my monthly payment (mortgage, taxes, interest, insurance, and PMI) ended up being about $100 LOWER than on my earlier estimate. Not complaining!

My realtor very kindly bought me a bottle of Korbel champagne which I will enjoy tomorrow night while looking at the Capitol dome from my new pad!

Did I talk about New Orleans??

Okay well... I will! I was there working, actually, but found enough time to have some fun. I ate my freaking HEART out. Poboys, wine, mufaletta sandwiches, beignets and coffee for breakfast every morning, a random night of sushi, cheese, gumbo, fried alligator tail... you name it, I ate it! I definitely did not deny myself. Surprisingly, my pants still fit by the end of the week!

This is a shot of me giving my conference talk:

I had a great turnout and lots of good feedback.

I went with a friend we rented Piaggio Fly's for a couple days and took our own graveyard tour! The graveyards were awesome and super creepy. Here is me on my scooter all decked out in rain gear:

All in all it was a really good trip. Long enough to really get a feel for the city and know my way around. Long enough so that I missed home :) But not so long that I was wondering what to do with myself. I'm glad to be home though and will be glad when all this upheaval is over!

Progress and Sadness

Well, the books are packed. Artwork is off the walls. Most of the real packing won't take place until Friday afternoon. I'll need stuff until then, and I'm not the type to pack halfway. I'm not going to pack the whole kitchen except for one dish. No way. It's all gonna go at once. I'm neurotic like that.

God, I guess this is actually happening. I'm not getting cold feet (yet) but I do feel sad. I talked to my neighbor this evening about the move. We've been trading cat-sitting duties for years, and he's lived in the building for 14 years... so he's seen a lot of people come and go. He got me a gorgeous pair of earrings made from 2000-year old Roman glass! Sob!! I have it good here. A gorgeous flat, nice neighbors.

But I'm really excited about my new place, my new neighborhood, my new investment... a place to call my own, where no one can raise my rent, where I'm contributing to the local economy, where I can paint the walls and re-do the floors (eventually... heh). I'm ready for this and I can't wait for Saturday evening. What happens between now and then, well, I'm just getting through.

Countdown

Thursday - Final walkthrough
Friday - Settlement
Saturday - Move

I HATE MOVING. I hate it so much. I hate being confronted with the mass of my crap. I hate the mess and confusion. I hate the sweat and the dragging and the multiple trips.

I do enjoy setting up a new place and exploring a new neighborhood. I just hate the process of moving and it's such a long process... I feel like time stands still in the middle and there's that point where you aren't close to the end at all and you feel like you'll be in the process of moving for the rest of your life.

But... I have little choice... am just trying to keep my eyes focused on the end result. My own home!

Presentation Success!

Having a grand old time in New Orleans. Feeling thick around the middle and hazy in the brain, but managed to pull myself together to give a great presentation a few hours ago. About to get together for a happy hour cocktail with some of the others in the field that I only see once a year or so at some annual conference or another.

Tomorrow - vespa rental! Gonna cruise around the city on a little 50cc vespa and give myself a personal tour of the graveyards.

Return on Saturday evening and prepare for the week of packing, signing my life away, and moving into my new digs.

Oh PS

I HAVE MY FINAL LOAN APPROVAL!

Oh god that means I am going to be paying a mortgage.

Quick Hello from New Orleans!

Having a fantastic time in the Big Easy. Started Sunday with a long exploration of the French Quarter and riverwalk. The food is too good to be believed, though the French Quarter nightlife scene is not really my thing. It's great for people watching but full of groups in their early 20's just looking to drink as much as possible and highlight their evening by puking in the street.

Monday I was in a workshop for part of the day (I AM supposed to be working, after all!) but found the time to take the St. Charles St trolley to the Garden District. The houses... amazing... I love the second-story porches and floor-to-ceiling shutters. Love it. Walked back along Magazine St through the warehouse district and ate at Mother's, a New Orleans institution.

Now I am waiting for my travel companion to get back to the hotel with our rental car. We're setting out to explore the bayou and find some real Cajun food...

The conference starts tomorrow and I speak on Thursday. I do intend, however, to find some more jazz, do some more shopping, and continue to commit a very slow suicide by food.

I can tell that I'm stressed

This condo situation must be stressing me out more than I think. Lately, every little inconvenience has felt like a catastophe. I can't handle the slightest bit of uncertainty and my frustration level over things that are really no big deal is through the freaking roof.

Case in point: I just found out that use of the fitness center at my hotel in New Orleans next week is $10/day. I honestly feel short of breath with anger over this. I'll be down there for a week and I really want to maintain fitness, continue with weight-lifting, etc so I don't undo all my progress being sedentary. But I'm trying to drop a couple hundred thousand dollars on a condo and really don't want to spend $70 for the privilege of working out for 45 minutes per day.

And before you tell me to just bring clothes and run outside - it's an option I'm consider but it's not ideal. I haven't been running this summer because of the heat, and the heat in New Orleans is going to be WORSE than the heat I've been avoiding in DC. So I'm not acclimated. And even if I were, the amount of running I would have to do to maintain my current fitness level (which is pretty damn high, frankly) would be difficult if not impossible to fit in, time-wise, along with conference obligations.

Something SO SIMPLE - finding a place to work out at a hotel - has become difficult, and my disproportionate reaction is a strong clue that I am tolerating - but barely - massive amounts of stress and frustration.

I imagine that some people function like this all the time. I can't imagine that. Feeling like I'm on the edge of a major meltdown is just no fun; if this were my status quo I would definitely be in therapy or on medication - or both.

Sharing Experiences

I think it's fascinating, the human inclincation to share experiences. I was walking home from dinner tonight and there was a ton of heat lightning in the sky - some big flashes and some bolts. After a particularly severe bolt, I look around and there was a girl walking behind me and we both sort of smiled at each other as if to say, "Did you see that?"

If you've ever seen anyone high-five a stranger at a sports game or peer over a crowd to see what people are looking at, you know what I mean. I've done a fair bit of traveling on my own, which has it's advantages, but there's nothing like the feeling of witnessing something amazing/touching/hilarious/weird and saying, "Do you see that?" and getting the affirmation and talking about it with someone.

I think this inclination goes to prove that man really is a social animal; even the most shy and reclusive among us.

Killing Time

Don't you hate it when you have like 30 minutes before you have to leave the house? It's too soon to get ready to go but not enough time to really start reading a book or get involved in a project. So here I sit, obsessively refreshing my email (none new), doing the dishes (took five minutes), putting away laundry (another five minutes) and back to my email again.

In other news, I can feel a major purge coming on. I have some little knick-knacks lying around, random papers and things that have been shoved into drawers, a couple pairs of shoes to get rid of. Moving is hopefully at the end of August but before then I hope to be a lot "lighter" - both in possessions and weight.

In preparation for two upcoming trips, one to New Orleans and one to the United Kingdom, I am trying to slim down so that I can stuff my face with beignets and beer and still fit into my pants when I get home. That effort is going pretty well, but I leave for New Orleans a week from today, so it's crunch time... gotta stay on the train for seven more days.

I have absolutely nothing in my fridge but milk, butter, mayonnaise, pumpkin butter, and a little bit of raspberry syrup - I am very much looking forward to stocking up on healthy veggies, yogurt, greens, eggs, and hummus for the week. For lunch I am going to make my very simple, delicious, and healthy two-bean salad:

One can chickpeas
One can cannellini beans
One large bell pepper (color of your choice)
One bunch scallions
Three large cloves garlic
Juice of one lemon
Salt and pepper to taste

Drain and rinse beans, chop vegetables, mince garlic, and combine all in large pot. Serve as a side dish with half a sandwich or eat as lunch.

Okay... now I have fifteen minutes before I gotta run out the door. Time to get dressed. Thanks for letting me kill some time.

Where have I been?

I light of my upcoming trip to the UK, I thought I would make a list of all the countries I've visited. This does not include airport layovers or passing through on a train; for a country to be included on the list means I've spent intentional time there.

United States
Canada
Ireland
Greece
Germany
Austria
Switzerland
Liechtenstein
Czech Republic
The Netherlands
China
Iceland

In September:
England
Wales
Scotland

Hopefully next year:
Denmark
Sweden

Now you go!

Standing up for Myself

I am very bad at standing up for myself. I'm bad at asking questions when I don't understand things. But I can't afford to take the easy way out with this condo purchase, and today I stood up for myself twice and had very positive results!

Situation #1 - Home Inpsection.

My home inspection is tomorrow. My realtor told me to expect the price to be between $150-180, which is fine. But when I got the invoice, it was $250! And this was after two BS "discounts." The original price was $310. So I emailed my realtor to see if he knew if this price was negotiable. I was really embarassed about doing this, but at this stage every dollar counts. He wrote back and said that everything in life is negotiable He said when the inspector sees the actual square footage tomorrow, the price will be close to $180, and that he has my back. Whoo!

Situation #2 - Good Faith Estimate

My lender advised me to ask the seller to contribute xxxx amount to cover my closing costs. I wrote that into the offer and the seller agreed. Then, when I got an updated estimate, the closing costs were almost $1000 higher - and of course *I* have to pay any closing cost overflow beyond what the seller agreed to. I was pissed! WTF So I sent the estimate to my brother who is a mortgage lender and he told me to ask my lender to reduce the "Loan Origination Fee" by xxxx amount so that the closing costs would equal what the seller agreed to pay. I NEVER would have done this on my own. I asked my lender to reduce the fee feeling confident that he was going to say no or try to tell me that he couldn't do it even though my brother told me he absolutely has the power to reduce the fee.

My lender wrote back almost immediately and told me the fee had been adjusted I'm really annoyed that he jacked up the fee when HE WAS THE ONE who told me what the closing costs would be.

Oh well - two good lessons here, and I'm proud of myself. Plus I had French toast and a milkshake for dinner. So it's been a good day :)

An Unexpected Afternoon to Myself!

I was 50% sure I had plans after work today but they have been postponed, so I have the afternoon and evening to myself! Ah, the luxury.

Here is my plan:

• After work, nap.
• Wake up, lift weights, get sweaty
• Shower and crack open a bottle of wine
• Finish Season One of 30 Rock and maybe start Season Two
• Turn a few more pages of the great novel I'm knee-deep into reading
• Fall asleep early

Doesn't get much better than that :)

Oh Angelina!

Yesterday I went up to Baltimore to take a workshop from my all-time favorite banjo player, Angelina Carberry. She taught a great set of jigs but didn't spill nearly enough information about how she developed her style.

Afterwards, she and her husband Martin Quinn played an intimate little show at the Stony Run Friends Meeting House. Here's a quick shot that I snapped with my phone (I have a fancy new phone and couldn't figure out how to turn off the flash - thanks to Sean McComiskey for admonishing me via text message! Was that really necessary? (Heehee)

I noticed that she holds her banjo a lot differently than I do... with the neck out at a 45-degree angle from her body. I also found out that she uses much heavier strings that I do, but about the same thickness of pick.

Anyway, the result of all this is that I am more inspired to play than I have been in recent months. All I want to do is go home and practice my new set of jigs!

Friday Night Connundrum

Here I am on my usual Friday night - relaxing at home with the cats. Boring, I know. But it's been a long week; a couple of late nights, interrupted sleep, a lot of emotional energy spent on the condo situation. So I need a night to just relax by myself.

I'm in the middle of a great book called The Bell by Iris Murdoch. Murdoch writes beautiful prose and captivating, dramatic stories but they are undoubtedly downers on the topic of relationships. I would, however, love to get a few pages in, the only problem is I'm sure I'll fall asleep if I start reading. Then I'll wake up at 9pm and be awake the rest of the night. Not a great way to start the weekend.

So I'm making some tea and might watch a little television or a movie and go to bed (for the whole night!) on the early side.

Tomorrow afternoon my dear friend Eileen is getting married in northern Maryland. I'll go up for the day but not stay overnight. I'm excited for her because I know that she's excited. Congratulations Eileen and Matt!

I signed the final contract for my condo, so everythig is ratified. The home inspection is Wednesday. Stay tuned...

Condo Update!

I am negotiating an offer on a fantastic condo on Capitol Hill. The building went up in 1800 as a convent and was completely renovated in 2005. It's a block and a half from the US Capitol and sits on an angle, so my unit has a view not only of the dome but also of the Washington Monument. Whoo for the Fourth of July!

It's a block from the metro and has 15-foot ceilings.

I really, really want this to go through. This unit is even better then the previous one I had an offer one (the private entrance/rosebush unit) - and the FHA spot approval that tripped us up last time shouldn't be an issue this time.

Now if only the seller would get back to me about the counter-offer....

Book Splurge!

It has been a while since I've blown a chunk of cash on books, and since Trover's on the Hill is going out of business, I thought I would take advantage of their sale and help them get rid of their inventory.

I got:

Les Miserables (Victor Hugo)
The Psychology of Love - Selected Essays (Sigmund Freud)
Dracula's Guest and Other Weird Stories (Bram Stoker)
Dangerous Liaisons (Choderlos de Laclos)
The Bell (Iris Murdoch)

So much for saving money by going to the library!!

I am keeping my cats up

I can tell they both really want to take a nap. But they have this thing about following me around. The three of us move around my tiny flat in a little pack. They always want to be near me... but right now I am kind of restless. I was watching TV and they were sleeping on the couch, then I went to the other room to work on a crossword and they both came and flopped down on the floor and fell asleep, now I am back in the living room and they are both here with me, trying to sleep on the floor by my feet.

Poor things. Poor, sleep-deprived kitties. Life must be so hard for them.

Minor Annoyances

I have been compiling a list of books I'd like to read, but for some reason I took my library card out of my wallet and haven't put it back. So I haven't been able to get to the library. Gah! I have nothing to read! Well, that's not true but I am bored with everything I have here. I want a novel. A long, engrossing, summertime novel.

My goal is to make sure I hit the library Thursday or Friday so I can read all weekend long.

Update

I guess I owe everyone an update. I have been on leave all week and it is GLORIOUS. I took off for southern Virginia for a few days and revelled in the complete lack of cell phone reception.

I spent all day yesterday on a sailboat, blissfully detached from the outside world.

All four parental or semi-parental units will be passing through town this weekend, which means a couple of free meals and drinks.

I am actually not dreading going back to work on Monday because, well, I like work.

So... all is well.

The Best Laid Plans

I always have plans on payday to make a huge, luxurious, spendy grocery trip, but somehow I freeze up when it comes time to really go nuts.

FOr example, this afternoon I really wanted to go nuts at the store and stock the fridge, freezer, and cupboards with all kinds of staples and goodies that I am usually too frugal to buy.

Well, I came away with this:

Spinach
Goat cheese
Two bottles of wine
Assorted olives
Frozen soybeans

All for a grand total of $30.16

Look out world... Diana's going craaazy!!!! ::sarcasm

Wow

Okay, so it's been a crazy and eventful weekend. I'm thankful for a (mostly) cool head in times of crisis and thankful for the emotional rock of a great friend who keeps me stable.

Did I mention that my Capitol Hill condo fell through? Well, it did. We couldn't get the seller to accept my financing. So, that is sad. But I have a good lead on another condo in Dupont Circle, which would also be a great location for me. I am trying to be patient with the process.

I have also been thinking a lot about the concept of "loving" a condo. You hear people talk this way when buying real estate. They'll say, "Don't buy a place unless you love it." Well.. does anyone really "fall in love" with a studio condo?

I am looking to invest my money in a small home in a fabulous urban neigborhood. But I don't necessarily expect to walk into a property and think it's my dream home. My dream home is not a studio or even a one-bedroom condo. But those are the homes that are available to me because I have made the conscious choice to live in the city, and in popular city neighborhoods.

So, I am slowly letting go of the idea of looking for a condo that I love and am focusing more on finding a good living space in a neighborhood that I love. That seems to make more sense to me.

Well, I'm off tonight to my first barbecue of the summer! Yay beer! And then I just have four days of work until I am off for a week - well, ten days if you consider both weekends and the July 3rd holiday. I can't believe how badly I need the break.

Condo fell through but my arms are getting hard!

So, my beloved Hill condo fell through. We don't have any more avenues to pursue it, so we withdrew our offer. Very sad, as the place had two features I am unlikely to find anywhere else: a private entrance, and private outdoor space.

I do, however, have a lead on a Dupont condo that is:

*bigger
*cheaper
*two blocks from my office

So, we will see.

In other news, my arms are getting ROCK. HARD. from all these kettlebell drills. I love it!

I don't think it looks ugly

Dramatic maybe, but not ugly.

Fuck 'em.

Condo Update

I just wrote a post about my condo but blogger had a publishing error. I'm not going to retype it. I don't have the energy. Instead, I'm going to bed.

Sorry.

Stuck

I should work out but I don't really feel like it.

I should go to the grocery store but I don't really feel like it.

I should write the second part of my journal article but I don't really feel like it.

TV is boring me.

The internet is boring me.

I darkened the color of my hair and it looks ugly.

I am sad. For no apparent reason. :-(

Great Run

I squeezed in a run between massive thunderstorms today and was richly rewarded for my risk! I took a longer and more strenuous route than I had intended, but it paid off. Winding through the park, I saw a beautiful deer, munching on some grass about two feet off the trail. I didn't see her until I was almost past her, but she saw me - just looked and calmly turned her head to watch me go by.

I ventured off the paved trail to follow a hilly and rocky off-shoot called the Western Ridge Trail, which ended at Pierce Mill Park, where I was headed. No running there - it was hands-and-knees climbing up the ravine wall for the most part! But the further I got into the woods, the less I could hear the cars. Really, I could have been in the Shenandoahs for all I knew... it was so quite and serene back there.

I took the long way up the huge hills leading back up to Connecticut Ave, exploring the embassy-lined side streets behind the Levine School of Music.

By the time I got home my legs were shaking but solid, like long, slender tree trunks. I was perfectly spent and ready to be productive, which I have been this evening, attempting to turn a conference presentation into a somewhat-compelling journal article. Wish me luck.

We Lost

After a long and noble playoff session, the Red Wings' hopes for a repeat of the Stanley Cup victory last year are officially over. It was a great matchup and both teams faced formidable opponents in each other. I'm proud of my team and am looking forward to a new season in October.

Part of me is thankful for the end of the season. Playoffs make me miserable. I'm miserable when we're winning and miserable when we're losing. I get anxious. I drink. I get grumpy. Being a true fan is emotionally draining.

Plus, now I can revolt against RCN's completely unconscionable rate hike and cancel my cable. I plan to use hulu.com and Netflix Instant for my TV viewing. All I need is an antenna to make sure I can get the local channels for news. That is first on my list of things to take care of next week.

Rethinking Yoga

I have not been attending yoga classes lately. There are several reasons for this, and for a while I was struggling with it, but suddenly I feel at peace.

My methods of achieving health and fitness have been shifting lately. Last year I was running a lot and eating a highly-structured, robotic diet. I felt okay, but it was punishing, complex, and not very much fun. Over the past few months, however, I have begun to let running go by the wayside in preparation for taking the summer off. I've been lifting weights and eating a much lighter yet more relaxed diet.

My yoga practice was at it's peak during my times of running, but it wasn't really serving a purpose. I wasn't improving. I wasn't having fun. The system of Ashtanga is not the right system for my body type, but I had developed a history with the studio, it was conveniently located, and I was in the habit of attending classes there.

I have realized, however, that my main reasons for attending the studio involved my instructors. I like my instructors a lot. I want their approval; I want them to view me as a dedicated, focused student. And so for a while there I was attending practice mostly so I wouldn't be seen as a slacker.

But, yoga is not cheap. And because I'm trying to buy a condo, I've been trimming costs where I can, and the savings are adding up. I've also realized that I need to stop caring so much about how others view me. My dedication to yoga is not seen through how many classes I attend per week. And if I have instructors who see it that way, well, they're the ones missing the point.

I feel healthy and strong and happy with the decisions that I've made. Yoga IS for me. I feel great when I'm doing it and it's had a tremendous influence on my life and my health - spiritual and physical. The system of Ashtanga specifically, maybe not so much, but that's a minor detail.

Once I move and get settled, I'd like to find another studio, local to my new home, and begin formal practice again. In the mean time, I practice at home in a way that enhances my life. Because my life is mine, and the beauty is that no one but me has to live with my decisions.

Random Observations

In the metro this morning, a young boy wearing a yarmulke speaking Hebrew with his mom. His mom pulled out a diet pepsi and began drinking it. Then the boy pulled out a bottle of water and began drinking it. Then he pulled out a bottle of chocolate milk, drank some, and offered it to his mom, who drank some. How many beverages do two people need to take the train in DC?

I finally got around to changing my cats' litter this evening. They must have been desperate, because Natasha went to pee and Elena tried to crawl in there with her. That was a scramble of yowls and claws and litter going everywhere. Good times.

My knee randomly hurts for no reason. It could be that I had poor squat form yesterday while doing weighted kettlebell squats because I was fatigued from running.

Holding Pattern

I am in a holding pattern. My condo purchase is in a holding pattern, my social life is in a holding pattern. And it's okay.

I am digging a slower pace of life lately. The condo search is stressful and emotional and right now I don't know if I'll get the one I love (isn't that the story of life?) and I won't know anything until June 24th. So I wait.

I have been exhausted lately but after a rejuvenating trip to Michigan feel much better. Taking control of my social life has helped. This week I'm pretty much staying in except for a session in Virginia on Wednesday night. Other than that I'm holing up for the hockey playoffs and focusing on my health.

Weight lifting has treated me well. My body is getting stronger.

Gratuitous photo: kayaking on Walnut Lake with my mom over Memorial Day weekend.

I can't wait for playoffs to be over

Because they make me miserable. I have eight strokes per game. GAH. Just get it over with, people!

Also, I want to cancel my cable. RCN raised my bill by about $20/month because of new charges, and that is just the "promotional rate." What with hulu.com and all the isntant-watch options on Netflix, there is really no reason to subscribe to cable anymore. I'll be taking care of that as soon as the Wings win the Cup (again).

Mint

You could say that I dig being organized. It's one of my hobbies. I probably share this quality with other high-performing, perfectionistic, uber-controlled over-achievers. Well, lately I have really been digging mint.com in that it adds a new level of neurosis to my finances.

Mint.com is free and safe. It basically coordinates all of your savings, checking, credit, loan, and investment accounts and provides myriad ways to graph, categorize, and track your spending.

I recently signed up and am hooked. I can panic over how my recent, decadent meal at Wolfgang Puck's Source restaurant put my "food and dining" spending over the top while still feeling smug that I spend about one-fifth on food and dining that other people in Washington, DC do.

Yep, I can compare my spending, by category, to others in my demographic (or at least in my geographic sphere).

It's fun! And as someone who (hopefully) will be paying a mortgage soon, I think it's worth the extra level of detail. That, and I never miss an opportunity to over-analyze any and every aspect of my life.

Weekend in Michigan

It has been a great weekend! The weather has been absolutely perfect - sunny and cool. We went bike riding (14 miles!), kayaking (my poor abs are sore), we watched the Wings massacre the Blackhawks 6-1, we drank prosecco and ate home-grilled burgers on the patio, we drank martinis on the Clinton River. I napped, slept in, and went to bed early.

This morning we're going to run the West Bloomfield Nature Trail before heading to the airport, where I'll be home early enough to have a very leisurely evening.

Updates

I finally managed to secure a night to myself and it feels great. I've worked out hard, gotten a few things organized, caught up on The Sopranos, did laundry, and am just generally laying low. Tomorrow night I have plans to have dinner at Wolfgang Puck's Source restaurant in the Newseum, which should be amazing! I think I'l dress up :)

The condo situation is moving ahead. Since finding the place that I LOVE we have been jumping through a few bureaucratic hoops but it looks like things will work out. I have the counter-offer, which is acceptable to me (we offered in such a way that allowed room for a counter-offer) and I will hopefully be signing that in the next few days. Then we can move ahead with all the inspections, reviewing the condo association rules, etc.

If this comes through I will be terribly excited except for one thing. I. Hate. Moving. I hate packing all my shit and moving all my shit. It makes me feel like I have SO MUCH CRAP. And even though I am going to get rid of a few things before I move, I know I'll still feel anxious about the sheer amount of possessions I've accumulated in my life.

Oh well. It will be a necessary evil to endure to have a home of my own.

Fatigue

Lately I have been exhausted and it's really frustrating and I don't know why.

I am taking two-hour naps after work. Skipping workouts. Struggling to stay awake at my desk.

I'm not staying up terribly late, I'm eating well. Not working out as much (see above).

It's not just tiredness, either. It's the kind of exhaustion where if you sit still you can actually feel your body trying to repair itself the way it would when you sleep.

I'm very frustrated. I want to work out and run and swing kettlebells. I want to have time and energy for my family and friends.

I noticed today that I have three magazines on the coffee table that I haven't read. That is really unusual for me - I love my magazine subscriptions and ordinarily read them all immediately after they arrive.

Maybe I have been more busy than I think. I don't know. I can't really remember what I've done this week.

Eggs

Faithful readers of IaJtbH will know that I am very particular about the way I cook eggs. I have studied and practiced different techniques with great success. Well, on Monday night a Baltimorean friend of mine told me about a delicious fried egg he was served at a friend's house in Manhattan. A poach/fry combination; I was intrigued. Seeing as it's pretty bare-bones in my kitchen right now, I decided to scrape together two eggs, a whole wheat pita, and some parmesan cheese and give it a shot.

I buttered a small skillet and, while it was heating, split a pita and put it under the broiler to toast. I cracked two eggs into the skillet, poured in just enough water to sort of float the eggs, and covered them. They cooked for about 2 minutes maybe (on very low heat - no flipping involved) while my pita turned a perfect golden brown. I could tell the eggs were done when the yolks had a cooked film over them. I salted the pita, slid the eggs onto one half, grated the cheese over the eggs to melt, put the top on my sandwich, and dove in.

PERFECTION. The whites were cooked through, soft but done, with absolutely no trace of the gross brown crust that can develop along the edges. The yolks were soft on the first bite but carryover cooking finished them off as I was eating. (I prefer slightly hard yolks just for neatness sake.)

A poached/fried egg sandwich on toasted whole wheat pita with parmesan cheese. Breakfast for dinner. Doesn't get any better than that.

Goals for the Week

I've been eating well lately and I feel good, but a bit flabby. Also, I have a 5k coming up this Saturday, and my scheduled time off from running has been going really well... sooo... this week I need to re-think some things and make some very specific goals for myself.

1. Run three times. Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday. Three miles each time, no matter the weather or how I feel. The race is for a good cause and I'm not looking for time, I just want to finish and feel good.

2. Yoga twice. Tuesday and Friday.

3. Weight on running days. Kettlebell and free weights.

4. Eat carefully. I'm not going to strive for 100% clean eating because that sort of thinking always backfires for me. One mistake and I've failed to meet the goal - after which I say "to hell with it" and start shoveling junk down my throat. Rather, I'll strive for 100% clean eating at meals and one small junky snack per day. That could be a muffin in the morning, a hot chocolate, an ice cream sandwich. Something small. And only one per day. That way, I don't undo all my progress and don't feel deprived.

Incorporating sweets into my diet helps me stay on track. When things are forbidden I suddenly want them. When they're allowed, they lose their luster and I can take them or leave them.

Anxious

I took a nap after work today so I would have a better chance of staying up to watch the 10:30pm hockey game, and when I woke up I felt anxious, irritated, and sad. I haven't been able to shake those feelings.

My work computer got all messed up after I took it in for the IT guy to do some work. He fixed one thing but now the computer won't recognize the wireless device, so I'm back to using the crappy PC that I am about ready to donate. I need that laptop to be able to connect to the internet so I can work from home. Hopefully it can get fixed tomorrow.

The Red Wings aren't doing very well in this playoff round, and that stresses me out.

I've been staying up half the night watching the games, going to sleep and waking up disappointed, running all over town looking at condos and sitting for cats, not getting enough sleep or downtown and my mind is spinning a million miles a minute.

I have full plans most weekends in May which is stressing me out because I am a person that requires a lot of unstructured time in order to be at my best, and usually that time comes on the weekends.

I put an offer on a condo today and am stressed out that it will be accepted, I'm stressed out that it won't be accepted.

I'm stressed out in general.

A New Leaf

So I've been thinking a lot about my fitness and nutrition and I think that taking the summer off of running really means that I am evolving in terms of how I see exercise and food and my own health.

I've been hanging out over at Skwigg's blog and this post really spoke to me. I hear a lot about intuitive eating and it's usually embedded with touchy feely new-agey innuendo that I only roll my eyes at. But lately I've been giving it a shot in some really practical ways, and I've found myself proud.

What it boils down to for me is just slowing down and trying to think of what I really need when I go to eat something. Yes - sometimes I WANT chocolate, or ice cream, or a slice of bread pudding that someone brought into the office today (heh), and that's fine. Wanting to eat something for the sake of wanting to taste it is valid. I'm not going to over-analyze it. But when it's really obvious like I'm bored, or I'm lonely, or I'm stressed - then I'm definitely going to acknowledge that and come up with an alternate means of meeting that need, such as going for a walk during the day, taking a nap, making a hot cup of tea, or calling a friend.

So far my new kettlebell routine along with this new way of handling my diet has been great for me. Someone brought me chocolate today and whereas before I would have eaten the whole thing for fear that it would be wasted, I broke off one square and enjoyed it - after getting a few other things done first. The chocolate is not my master. It's not going anywhere. And I enjoyed it a lot more because I wasn't left with massive feelings of guilt and anxiety and trying to calculate what I'd have to do to burn the calories I just ingested.

Food is a lot more fun when it's for pleasure and fuel and not stress. Always a work in progress though - for me at least.

But I am learning to eat and enjoy everything without micro-managing my food intake.

Whew

So I posted a whole rant about the condo search and it got erased by some weird blogger glitch.

GRR.

I don't feel like recreating it. All I want to do is go home and crawl into bed and wait for the hockey game to come on.

Whew

Okay - I was able to restore my lost post:

"Looking at condos is hard work, emotionally. It is hard to walk into a place and try to imagine what your life might be like living there. To look at every inch of a place and list pros and cons and try to anticipate what you can and can't tolerate, what might come up when you sell down the line, how to make something work for you that isn't perfect, wonder if you're rationalizing, caution yourself against hurrying, resist the urge to pass because you're SURE something a LITTLE better is right around the corner.

At some point you have to CTFU and make the best decision you can with the inventory and funds that are available.

I saw a beautiful condo yesterday and then stayed up half the night worrying about stupid details and wondering how I could arrange my furniture.

Now I am exhausted and still have a few more hours left on my tour. All I want to do is go home, open the window, and crawl into bed for a nap."

Now that I've napped and eaten, I feel better. To respond to Lorna, I actually prefer to walk into a building and HATE the condo. That is easy! It's when I'm lukewarm that I second guess myself.

Second Wave

Part two of the condo search begins tomorrow. I am seeing two great places - one on the Hill that is an amazing location and in my price range, but a little small, and one in Dupont that is a bit bigger but out of my price range. I would need the seller to come down A LOT (like, 20%) in order to afford this place, but I figure I'll look at it anyway.

So, wish me luck. For now, I'm inside on a rainy afternoon with a cat sleeping on my feet, so for the moment things couldn't be better.

This is Hard

The condo search continues. I am doing the second wave of viewings this Thursday. So far, I have found a great 1-bedroom condo that is very, very reasonably priced, and it's right around the corner from my office. The problem is that it's very far from the metro - over a mile to the safer one, less than a mile to a different metro but that would not be a safe walk at night. Also, there has been a lot of shooting about two blocks to the east.

I'm also looking at a studio condo in Dupont that is smaller and more expensive but a great location, and hoping to look at a smaller condo on the Hill that is, as I said, small but in a neighborhood I absolutely love.

I think at the end of the day that I would prefer to have less space if it means a great neighborhood. And since I don't have a car, I need to feel absolutely comfortable walking to the metro at night. I don't want to feel like a prisoner in my home, that's not cool.

But, I'd have a bedroom. I've never had a bedroom in my whole adult life!

Sigh... lots of decisions... lots of things to weigh.

Boring Post

I don't have much to say but I feel like I should write something or else my readers will become bored with me!

The condo in Cleveland Park I was interested in fell through due to some disclosure by the listing agent. The next wave of property viewings begins on Thursday. I have m eye on three great studios... so... we'll see how that goes.

I have a laptop! Now I can blog and twit and email without ever leaving the couch. How, oh how did I previously manage to walk three steps over to my desk every time I wanted to use the computer? Glad I don't have to do THAT anymore.

My body is still happier not running. I'm more flexible, leaner, and the calluses on my feet have completely healed themselves. I am greatly looking forward to the hot summer months now that I know I won't have to run through them.

I got accepted to speak at a conference in New Orleans in August! Yes it will be hotter than Hades, but I've never been to NO and it boggles my mind that I am going to be flown down, put up, and given a per diem to speak for twenty minutes.

The Wings swept Round One of the playoffs and we're taking a little break while Chicago and Calgary finish their matchup. Looks like we'll be playing Chicago which is a little alarming... they're a very physical team, and we're a very old team. We'll have to out-finesse them and make sure we stay healthy and whole.

That's it! I'm just doing laundry this morning and about to hit the kettlebells. More later!

Eye Candy

I'm in the mood for some hotness.

Curtis Stone


Tony Leung


Franke Potente


Gabriel Byrne


Nicole Linkletter


Zhang Ziyi

Happy Body

Finally - a beautiful DC spring day! After a rainy start to the week it was gorgeous today, gorgeous enough to go for a nice long run on Roosevelt Island. Not sure where my cardio endurance went (well, I do know where it went... ) so the distance was a bit of a struggle, but it was difficult to care because the sun was shining and the birds were singing!

In just about thirty minutes, the Red Wings will kick off their bid for the Stanley Cup against the Columbus Blue Jackets. I will be glued to the set.

Oh right - my happy body - well, I don't know! Weight training and a break from running have been treating me well. The ugly and painful calluses on my feet have all but disappeared. My upper body is becoming more strong and toned. My yoga practice is happier. I'm less stressed.

I saw my first condo today. A great price and fantastic location, but in shambled, and bank-owned so was being sold as-is. And while I certainly don't need a brand-new or renovated place, I do need something in move-in condition, and this wasn't it. Oh well. There are plenty more places to be seen, and I'm just excited to have the process begun!

Random Stuff

1. I now have a laptop. And wireless internet. Now there is no reason to ever get off my couch except to grab additional handfuls of peanut m&ms from the freezer.

2. The condo search is kicking off into full gear. I have meetings with realtors tomorrow and Thursday, after which I'll choose one and start looking.

3. My body is happy. A little less running, a little more weight-lifting, a better diet, and things are looking good. The blisters have come off my feet, I'm more flexible, I don't constantly battle hunger during the workday, and my arms are becoming more defined.

4. The Red Wings have entered Stanley Cup playoffs. We kick off round one against the Columbus Blue Jackets this Thursday. LET'S GO RED WINGS (clap clap clapclapclap).

5. I have Thursday off! It's DC Emancipation Day - the day that President Lincoln freed the slaves in DC. It's been a local government federal holiday for a couple years now. I think it's weird, but I'm not complaining.

BIG NEWS

No, I do not have cancer. Sorry to disappoint you, Matt.

The news is (drumroll please) - I have decided to enter the real estate market. I am officially looking for a condo.

I have consultations with two realtors this week, after which I will make a choice and start looking.

I'm already having multiple anxiety attacks not unlike what I imagine labor contractions to feel like. But I am excited. I'm ready, in all ways. Now I just have to endure the process, which is sure to be overwhelming, but totally worth it in the end.

New Food Regimen

So this is how it usually goes for me:

Breakfast at home a little before 6am. By 8:30-9am I am starving. I eat a snack which holds me over until about 11:30am, at which point I eat lunch. Then, for the remainder of my work day, I am pretty hungry and will end up either going across to the cafe for a snack ($$$) or giving in and using the vending machine (gross).

I have tried all kinds of snacks and bringing tons of food to work for afternoon pick-me-ups but just can't seem to get past the feeling of constantly being hungry at work. I end up spending too much money or eating too much junk.

I have decided to try something different. Today I brought oatmeal, raisins, milk, and tea to work along with a mug, bowl, and spoon. I will start eating breakfast (oatmeal) at work around 7:30-8am. Hopefully this will push lunch back a bit and leave me full for the afternoon so I am not either scrounging for something unhealthy or stuffing my face as soon as I get home.

Today I tried it for the first time. I did eat a little bit of yogurt with almonds at home a little before 6am, then made some oatmeal around 9am. It is now a little after noon and I am still satisfied from my oatmeal and not yet hungry for lunch. Also, now I can make tea at my desk and not spend money at Starbucks!*

*I will probably still make one morning run to Starbucks for my tea, but that is as much to get out of the office and get some fresh air as it is for the warm beverage.

Books Galore

Well, halfway through the day today my computer decided to stop working, so I took a walk through Adams Morgan to Idle Time and proceeded to drop $65 on used books!

From the psychology section:
The Therapist's Handbook: Treatment Methods of Mental Disorders
Masturbation: From Infancy to Senescence

From the philosophy section:
The Basic Works of Aristotle

From the religion section:
A Vow of Conversation: Merton's Journals from 1964-1965
The True Solitude

Good day... plus, by the time I got back my systems had come back online, so I was able to finish the day productively, get home to my Pilates workout, and blog a bit. Now I'm going to get a snack and look at my new (old) books!

Confession

I am a lump. Nothing but a big lump.

I got cocky after switching to the 5k and went out last night and stayed out too late and drank too much wine and didn't even make it to the start of the race.

Sigh....

Oh well - I am doing my kettlebells and pilates and yoga and going out for a run tomorrow. So maybe not a TOTAL lump...

COMPROMISE

Okay people, I figured it out. I am going to follow in Matt's footsteps and drop from the Cherry Blossom 10-Mile race down to the 5k.

That way, I still accomplish something, I'm not totally lazy, and yet I'm not pushing myself beyong my current physical capabilities.

This afternoon will mark the first of my pilates workouts. I'm going to give pilates and yoga (and the occasional weekend run) eight weeks and see what happens. Maybe I'll even make an attempt at chronicling my progress....

Sick and dying

I have never had such a drop-down knock-out cold. I took two days off of work! I can't remember if I've ever taken TWO sick days in a row.

Good god. I think I'm about ready to rejoin the world of the living. As for my 10-mile race? The fates have conspired against me. I might be ready to hang up my running shoes for the summer. Or maybe not. Should I summon some race-day mojo and just go for it? Not sure yet.

Bruised and Bloody

I still have a needle track in the form of a big ugly bruise on my arm from where I had blood drawn over a week ago. I seriously look like an addict, or a domestic violence victim.

And then, a second ago, I ripped the back of my hand sitting down at my desk. Yes, people, I bloodied myself SITTING DOWN. Is this what my life has come to?

Pressing On

Don't get me wrong - I was happy enough to sleep in last Saturday, wake up at a leisurely hour, and watch the National Marathon finishers while drinking my second cup of tea! This little break from self-punishment has done me well. The problem is that I have a 10-miler coming up in two weeks and I am probably going to be undertrained!

My current attitude is Oh Well. I'll finish, and probably easily. Will I have the best time? No. Will I have MY best time? Nah. Do I really, really care? In the grand scheme of things? Not in the slightest.

In fact, I'm seriously thinking of taking the hottest summer months off from running and focusing on weights, pilates, and yoga. I mean, why the hell not?

Feeling Good

The Wings have clinched their playoff spot and continue to dominate the League with a 3-2 win over Philadelphia last night, after being down two in the second period.

I've run three days in a row and had two great yoga practices as well.

I'm eating well - mostly clean, a few Cadbury eggs, but the main thing is I'm not sweating it!

The gorgeous afternoon sun haloed all the dust particles on my coffee table, so I whipped out the supplies and cleaned my entire apartment. I feel light and clean and airy.

I feel good.

Back in the Saddle... sort of

Lately I have not felt like doing anything productive. All I want to do is lounge around and read my book, watch movies, cook, go on walks. Running? Happy Hour? Eh.. I'll pass.

I was afraid this might happen. Is it as simple as inertia? Is is that my body, now at rest, wants to stay at rest?

When I'm in high training mode my life is a model of productivity. My flat is clean and tidy, I'm a machine at work, evenings are overscheduled and yet I'm early for everything. But now that I've stepped back from racing, I've become a total Type B. I don't want to be anywhere at a particular time. I skipped yoga this morning not because I didn't want to practice but because I didn't want to practice at 10:30. I just wasn't ready. I don't want to look at the clock or make any firm commitments.

See? This is why I'm always going 100mph... because if I slow down I'm afraid I'll settle in at zero.

Just One More Day Please!

I have had a nice little break from my running and yoga routine. Both Wednesday and Thursday after work I got in bed instead of suiting up and hitting the pavement. On Wednesday for the first time I can remember I took a two-hour nap. Thursday I didn't sleep but got a lot of reading done and stayed cozy under the covers with the windows thrown open and the cool air coming in.

And today... I just want one more day to go home and get in comfy clothes and chill out. So I am going to skip my usual Friday afternoon yoga class. Tomorrow I'll pick it up again with a relaxing run, Sunday back to yoga, and I'll get back on the (slower moving) wagon. I do have a fun run coming up in a few weeks, after all! But just for fun.

I have a new love

Pandora.com

OMG. LOVE LOVE LOVE it. Basically, you just type in the name of a song or artist that you like and it will compile a playlist for you with similar songs/bands. And it's free. I typed in "Liz Carroll" and am listening to the most awesome mix of Irish and bluegrass music... stuff I've never heard before.

SWEET!

Reining in my freak

Lately I have been acting like (more of) a control freak (than usual). It is annoying me and I'm sure it's annoying my friends. So, my rememdy is to go home after work and open all the windows and pile lots of blankets over myself and take a nice long nap without setting my alarm clock. Wake up, do some yoga, and commence the annual spring purge... cleaning out closets and cupboards always brings me the sense of control I crave without having to take it out on other people. Trip to Goodwill is scheduled for Saturday.

Dream

I dreamt that I was attending a funeral, but the way we walked into the church was the way you'd walk as if you were in a wedding. Then it was all outside, and I was in the front row of the outside church and even though it was daytime I could see two moons that were full. They were beautiful, but the earth was orbiting so fast that I couldn't get a good photo of them.

Okaaay...

On the metro this evening were two couples and another man, all middle aged. At first they were talking a little bit of business and then the man started raving on about this restaurant they were all going to. He was saying how amazing the food was, how much everyone was going to love it... how he ALWAYS eats at this place whenever he's in town.

Okay, said one of the others, what's it called?

Oh I don't know, the man replied flippantly. But I love it.

Nice Day

It's gorgeous outside! Sunny and warm but dry. Perfect for a walk down to Cleveland Park to meet Matt for an iced vanilla chai and catch-up conversation. Then later I'm going to meet another friend down at Eastern Market to wander around, pick up some things for dinner, and watch The Sopranos. Yes, I'm wayyy behind on this one... just starting Season One, but I'm hooked :-)

Oh, in between those two things I will go for a nice leisurely run with absolutely no pressure to meet mileage or pace goals. Just a relaxing run in the sunshine to improve my health and mood. I can't wait for it!

Feelin' Good

Ahh... just woke up from a nap and found myself surrounded by cats and bathed in the sun. Life is good. I'm going to have a very mellow night... a yoga practice here at home, some wine, a movie (Violette - will post review afterwards), my book, and an early bedtime.

I feel really good about my decision to drop out of the National Half-Marathon. In fact, I am looking forward to my run tomorrow afternoon with no pressure to run fast or meet mileage goals. Running is something I started doing to feel better about myself. I want it to be a source of confidence, strength, and solitude, not masochism and stress.

Let's hear it for being healthy..

Done

That's it. I've hit the wall in my personal life. I am tired of moving full throttle at every single thing I want to do. Nothing is fun anymore. I have no residual energy. I'm tired.

I have decided not to run the National Half-Marathon. I have decided to continue with the plan to run the Cherry Blossom 10-Miler.

I am not only at peace with my decision, the decision comes as an enormous relief.

That is all.

Why Is It That

1. I can be wearing a size four pant;
2. My boss can say I look skinny lately;
3. All my male co-workers notice and LOVE my new haircut;
4. A good male friend can tell me I look especially hot;
5. My dentist can say I look fabulous and what have I been doing to myself;

... and STILL it's possible to feel squishy and large and lazy.

I seriously hate being a chick sometimes!

Back from Santa Fe

Santa Fe was great... a nice long week of reading, siestas, hiking in the canyons, skiing in the Rockies, ceviche, enchiladas, and beer.

I'm thankful to get back to my routine (I AM, after all, a creature of habit) and starting to get anxious about my half-marathon coming up on the 21st. I had a 9-mile run schedule for Saturday, but being the day after a vacation, I ran six miles and was going to head out for the longer distance today. Unfortunately, we had a massive snowfall last night and the sidewalks are covered with ice.

So, my plan is to do a bunch of Sun Salutations today (check), run easy (4-5 miles) tomorrow, try for nine on Wednesday, off Thursday, yoga Friday, ten miles Saturday, and then I will be back on track.

Flexibility is key. After this weekend I will only have one more weekend before the big 13.1....